"Hi."
- "Hi."
"Can I come in?"
- "No, sorry."
"Ok."
Silence.
"I came by to say something."
- "So? Say it."
"I don't really know how to say it."
- Sigh.
"I want to tell you I'm sorry."
- "Ok. Is that all?"
Pause.
"No. I want to tell you I'm sorry."
- "I know. You already said that."
"Yes. But it didn't cut it."
- "It didn't cut what?"
"What I wanted to say."
- Sigh.
- "Then what do you want to say?"
"I don't know..."
- "That you're sorry?"
"Yes...
But I want to show you something."
- "Show me what?"
"How sorry I am."
- "You're sorry because I've left you."
"No. I'm not. Or yes, as well. But not really."
- "No. You're sorry because you feel bad."
"No."
- "You're a sellfish bastard."
"Yes, that I am. But I'm not sorry you left me."
- "Asshole."
"Look..."
Pause.
- "What?"
"I'm not sorry often."
- "I know."
"But I am now."
- "So you say."
"I don't know how to show you."
- Sigh
- "You don't have to show me."
"I know. But I want to."
- "I don't want to see it."
"Why not?"
- "Because I just don't."
Sigh.
"Do you want a cigarette?"
- "No."
"You sure? A rolled one?"
- "Well, no, give me one."
"There you go."
They smoke in silence.
- "So, tell me."
"Huh?"
- "What you're sorry about."
"For being an asshole."
- "Yes. I know that."
"Sorry."
- "And that's alll you wanted to say?"
Sigh.
- "No."
"I'm sorry for letting you down.
For promising you a world
I could never bring to you.
For forgetting about you,
after we've just met.
I'm sorry for doubting,
for never really believing.
Or, no. I'm not sorry for that.
I'm sorry for telling you I did,
believe in it, that is."
- "I don't want to hear that."
"But I want you to hear it."
- "Why?"
"So you know."
- "Please, stop the drama."
"I don't want it to be a drama."
- "Then what are you here to do?"
"Say sorry."
- "Well. You did."
"Yes."
Silence.
- "You've fucked up. That's all."
"Yes."
- "And I'm not ready to see you."
"I know."
- "Then why are you here?"
"Because somehow I believe you'll feel better."
- "What?"
"When you see I'm sorry."
Silence.
- "I don't feel better."
"Maybe you will, later."
- "I don't think you're sorry."
"I know you don't."
- "Well, are you?"
"I think so."
- "Are you misserable?"
"Well, sometimes."
- "Then you're sorry for yourself."
"Sometimes I am. But sometimes I'm not."
Silence.
- "I think you better go."
"Okay."
- "Bye..."
"Bye."
Sigh.
- "Why can't he ever say the right things?"